Why was I there?

I went the the R-Kelly Double up concert... I'm not really sure as to why... My friend was adament about me going; all the way to the point where he bought my ticket for me. Normally, this would not be a problem... however, he has feelings... feelings that make me feel awkward. It was almost palpable to me. His desire for me makes me uncomfortable. I'm not used to that... Usually, I'm the one wanting something deeper... but in this case, it's vice versa. There are a million reasons why our relationship would be wrong... but the main one is me. I don't want it... or at least, not with him... and watching him bumping and grinding further confirmed that feeling for me. But what's making me think that last night was a mistake... I can feel him even stronger through the phone. His wanting is seeping it's way through electronic lines saturating my ears, entering into my viens cause my system to get all fucked up... in an irritated sort of way. My fuse has gotten almost non existent... and with him, he needs me to have a long fuse. I can't even really write about this anymore; -SIGH- My Lyfe!