One long runon

i'm exhausted... i've been working at my internship and going to school and working at my job and doing my best to chill with my parents throughout the week (which i've somehow made possible with determination) and talk to necessary friends... and trying to maintain some sort of regular schedule on blog (which i can't anymore, so i just go with the flow of my life)...and thinking on the fact that this is just the beginning of 10weeks of overwhelmingly busy-ness... not knowing when i'm going to get to study for the exam that i need to pass to get national recognition and the degree that i have been investing in for the last year and a half (coming up in two weeks) since my job (that i'm on call for) told me that two of the girls are taking vacations next week and the week after and want every free moment i have outside of school and my internship...and i could use the financial...but that will strip my energy and make me loose the desire to study... not that people in this major do (there are those that have passed going in cold, or just studying the day before... which sounds like something i would do...lol)... and my internship has offered to give me financials for any hours that i do outside of my required 20 for my part time placement... but who knows if that's just talk (since i did 12hours just on fri)... apparently, there are alot of hours that the therapist are there for doing 'other' things (which was a large part of my friday) and i have no idea if that is payed time or not... but whatever... i don't do it for the money... hence my current financial status... i'll have to weigh out where to work though (since my job pays me more, but i have more fun at the clinic with my friends... but I like my co-workers too, and i like my job....sigh, whatever, it'll work itself out)...good news... i finally have running water... at some point during this week without me noticing, my dad got someone in here to locate the freakin leak that was so illusive i thought jas.on bour.ne had put that mess in the piping... now that all is well, i can spend extended times here without wondering how i'm gonna flush the toilet...today is the only day i get to really rest, but i won't be able to since i have cleaning, studying, and paper writing to accomplish...let's see if any of that actually gets done...i had several conversations yesterday that made me think about dating and romance and how things should or shouldn't be...i have a deep confusion as to when people stop talking about how they would be if there were with the person versus when they actually start doing it... i have an overwhelming belief that it should be a natural progression, where it just happens comfortably and easily... which leads me to the notion that i shouldn't wait for the person that i hope may happen once the label'girlfriend' is applied...i should be looking at the person of today and deciding on whether or not that works for me... i just get so wrapped up in liking someone and seeing the potential of it all that i don't really look entirely at what is happening right now...and no matter what is said about what will be...'what is' should the determiner for me... i've seen so many different types of relationships; ones that start and evolve quickly, and ones that go slow and steady approach... but all have a common underlying truth... you begin treating the person the way you would in a relationship the moment you start feeling that way... at least that's what i think...but my friend told me that she waits a bit with certain things... and my a few of my guy friends said the same thing... but those are the same guys that i've seen do bomb ass things for 'a potential', so i took their comments with a grain of salt...don quit blogging cause of drama... i wonder if the more people you follow and comment, the more drama happens... the reason i say that is cause of rashan... i loved following him in his old spot.. but drama happened and he really pulled back from the blog world... i mean, he used to get 30, 40 comments a post...i love following him now, but he does get less comments... the flip side... he has no drama... i've never gotten a sea of comments...and i've never had drama either... i think the only blogger i know that has a large amount of followers without any ish is opinionated diva... but who knows... maybe she's just better at handling her ish... the fact that drama has pushed don out of this alternate reality known as blogger cause of people talking is sad... blog drama should be a quick brush off, not a deep life affecting situation... but oh well... everyone handles things in their own way... and when the discussion of kids gets involved, then that is a new low that i just can't even understand... i just polished my nails... dark blue... i really like darkly polished nails (as you can see in my pics for the concert...those were dark brown)... i'm hungry... gonna go get something to eat... it's officially June! which means i can run 3 tolls without being mailed a ticket... i do it every month...lol... ok, ok, food now...